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15 May 2021

  Song mood: Walk by the Foo Fighters.   They’re on my list of bands that I want to see when bands start touring again.   Them and U2. Sometimes I get in this moods where I don’t want to be around people.  Dogs are okay, or actually, way better than okay.  But I went to a baptism of one of my cousin’s children.  I made small talk, listened to others, laughed to other people’s jokes.  Eventually, I felt better.  I told myself, that I didn’t tell anyone I was having a bad day, smiled a bit, no one would know.  I’m glad that I make myself do things when I’m in these moods.  It gave me more family time, and that is a good thing. I went through my Instagram feed, saw a few posts from my friends and cheered up.  Now, I mostly tired and hungry.  It’s tough cutting out my snacks. I decided that I will probably go as Peter Parker for Free Comic Book Day.  That way I can take my camera and take pictures.  I’ll ask my photographer friend what he does so I can get some interesting pictures.

13 May 2021

  Song mood: Times Like These by the Foo Fighters. Tonight, I got some writing done.  The next scene for my serial fantasy novel.  Probably not what I wanted to write, but it was something. Tomorrow I will do a quick edit. I wanted to write a scene about Phoebe, Inspector Trevor’s future wife.  I am hoping that my fictional character will get me through until I am able to find a woman who can see me.  So Phoebe is going to be fun, light hearted and kind.  I’m going to tweak scene.  Where she’s at the crime scene, Inspector Trevor comes on scene and she’s waving her hands saying yoohoo.  And the detective is shaking his head.  Then he tries to get past before any of his men see him, because he has a reputation of a hard nosed copper to keep.  And he fails, she talks to him like he’s a good dog and his men laugh at him. My uncle is coming to town this weekend.  And if it weren’t for that, I would have made a small trip to KC.  I would have made my own little writer’s retreat where I

12 May 2021

  Song mood: Thunderstruck by AC/DC. I think about this song and think about the Thor book that I want to write. I am all kinds of tired, second day in a row. I know at some point, I will get a decent night’s sleep. But not now and probably not soon. I keep to myself at the moment as I’m likely to throw Deadpool like insults and really mean what I say. My headache is still bad even after taking Tylenol. I want to take more pills, but don’t. It is taking me forever to even write this blog post. I ran today, the first time in like forever. It was only for three miles. I walked a mile after that. I have been cutting out snacks. So I eat less and if I wake up early, that’s okay. Once I lose weight and am weight 168, I will be happier with myself. In my musings last night, I rediscovered my core self. My core self is rooted in self improvement. That it is my essential self. To improve myself and others. It has been tougher to do that during the pandemic. Well, improving others, I’m no

11 May 2021

  Song mood: Move Along by The All American Rejects. I am all kinds of tired for various reasons. And because I’m really tired, I probably won’t do anything creative, except write this post. When I’m tired and beyond thinking, it’s best to read a Maigret novel and some writing craft books and hope that tomorrow will be a more rested day. It frustrates me to push off doing a project until tomorrow. I will watch some Tai Chi videos knowing that I will need to watch them again to get the concept they are teaching. I still have the covid taste. It’s a taste that I get when I get the shot and when I was infected with covid. It is more noticeable when I eat oranges. It kind of tastes like the food has rotted a bit. Last weekend’s trip took a little out of me. My knee hurts, my hips, back and shoulders hurt. Though each day is a little better. Tai Chi helps. It isn’t so much that I’m tired, but I’m weary and despondent. And I’m not sure if I want my spirits raised. I can’t believe it’s

7 May 2021

  Song mood: Alone by Heart. I'm at my Mum's apartment. I decided to drive up to Fargo to hang out with her and my sister. The drive took a lot out of me. My hips, shoulders and knees hurt. I didn't exercise as much this week and I can feel it now. So I'm going to work on Tai Chi when I get back. More than ever I need to return to the world of martial arts. The two biggest things after the second shot are joint pain and headaches. After that is my shortness of breath. This next week I will need to exercise and improve my health. For my writing, I will focus on doing. Just doing the thing I know how to do, write a scene. I will work on prewriting, writing scenes and editing.  For the scene that I wrote yesterday and posted on my other website, there were things that I wanted to change like word repetitions but had stuff to do in preparation for this trip. So it was a lesson in learning to live with imperfections. I may go back and do slight edits for the ebook and

Revenge of the Fifth

  Song mood: Vertigo by U2. Yesterday, I got my second shot. It wasn’t as bad as the first, but still was terrible. I had some joint pain and still do. The amount of abdominal pain was far less with this shot than the first. All this, is by far less than when I did have covid. I had abdominal pain and joint pain for weeks after. Sometimes I just need to reboot. The process seems to be taking longer, but probably a shorter time than before. I think I figured out a path for my writing to follow. The key is to set a system of prewriting that is agreeable to me.  I think if there is an outline to be done, it should only take about twenty minutes. Basically writing down a summary of what you are going to write. From there you write from within the character’s mind. And then maybe write a sentence or paragraph summary of what you are going to write before you write it. You just want a quick overview of what the story is going to be. The longer I spend on this process, the less time I h

May Day

  Song mood: Hanging by a Moment by Lifehouse. Which is my favorite song of all time. I have seen the band twice in concert. There is something about the bass line. In addition with the lyrics. This song, like many of their songs describe me. This is a band that loves music. The song was in the top ten for 37 weeks, but was #1 for only a week. With as much fame as they had, they could have done only stadium concerts. They also did small venue concerts like county fairs and bingo halls. That is dedication. To be so dedicated to your art that you would do anything and everything. That’s how you know that they really love music. Hanging by a Moment is a love song, like the coolest love song ever. I feel a certain type of love and it scares me. But Hanging by a Moment describes how I feel. When I write stories, I write characters that are their own people. So any female character won’t be someone I know but someone of their own person. But I want that character to be someone I could

29 April 2021

  Song mood: Zoo Station by U2. Things I need to do: 1.) cary around an idea journal. 2.) set some time to do some serious free-writing. 3.) collect ideas that will move the story. Some weeks I find it harder to write, or more specifically work on my projects. I have no problem sitting down and writing this blog for instance. It may be that I put a lot of pressure on myself to produce stuff. Even with the pulp fiction method. I have this need to have perfect writing and that is what stops me.  Sometime I should just set up my own writer’s retreat. Some place where I just sit down and write for a couple of days. Ideally a in cabin by mountains or ocean. So that I could gaze out at the scenery and then type. It’s been a week since I actually wrote a scene.  I end up doing more reading. Like I’m finishing Maigret Sets a Trap by Georges Simenon. The Rowan Atkinson (aka Mr Bean) version of the film adaptation of the book follows it close. There were some differences, like the type of w

Free Comic Book Day

Free Comic Book Day, in the past has been my favorite day of the year. This year, it’s on 14 August. Which has changed my birthday plans. I really didn’t have plans for my birthday yet. FCBD near my birthday will have a completely different feel than the nostalgia that I have had of the day. And that’s a good thing because change is a good thing. Free donut day would fall on the same day. Or maybe that was a Krispy Kreme thing. In the past, I would hang out with friends. We would meet at Starbucks starting at 7:30am and drink the largest cup of coffee. Then we would hang out at Dragon’s Lair comic books, wait in line for when they opened up. We would get our free comics and I’d buy a Doctor Who or Dirk Gently comic book to go with all the free comic books. Then we would head over to Krispy Kreme and get our free donut, and buy a few others to go with that. Then we would go to Krypton Comics and wait in line for an hour for their free comics. After that was lunch and then an Avenger’s m

24 April 2021

  Song mood: Royals by Lorde. It’s been a lazy day. Mainly because I woke up around 5:30ish this morning. I should have taken an Ibuprofen PM and slept past seven, but I didn’t. I’m reading books on how to write pulp fiction. I’m going through websites that talk about prewriting exercises. I think I may put together a manual of exercises to do to become productive in writing. Currently I’m listening to The Crow Trap by Ann Cleeves, the first Vera Stanhope mystery. The detective series on Britbox and Accorn is Vera . The book is very good. I love the descriptions the author uses. I went to Dragon’s Lair comic bookstore and bought a comicbook called American Vampire 1976 . More importantly, I found out that Free Comic Book Day is on August 14 th . Normally FCBD is on the first Saturday in May, but due to the pandemic, the last one was cancelled. I think I will dress up as the either the 11 th Doctor or a casual Ironman. I have time to put something together. Which, will be a m

22 April 2021

  Song mood: Mr. Brightside by The Killers. Woke up early this morning. Not that it matters. It’s where my thoughts dwell in the morning that bothers me most about waking up early. This morning I wrote down a list of how I can tell if a woman is interested in me. 1. Does she say hello or goodbye? Does she talk with you? 2. Does she follow you or follow you back on social media like Instagram? 3. Does she respond to your messages or send you messages? The list goes on. That doesn’t matter. I could use parts of this list for another list, will another artist or writer like to work with me? The list starts out as a kind of feeler. Like following someone on Instagram, does that writer or artist follow you back. If yes, great. If they have the same kind interest, like a type of sci-fi or fantasy, ask them if they would like to do a collaboration. Although, it is usually best if you met that person first, at say, a convention or writer’s group or book fair. All of which we couldn’t

19 April 2021

Song mood: Fly by Sugar Ray. I’ve been low energy for the past few days.  Yesterday everything tasted like pumpkin seeds, or bile. Tonight I was able to get a file from my computer put on phone through dropbox.  However, I’m not yet able to get the changes I made on the phone to sync up on the Scrivener on the computer.  If anything I can export or import the file, which I can do after I made all the changes.  The file is the fantasy novella I wrote last year.   I figure on some nights when I feel drained of energy, I can just edit.  Which is to say that I read every day anyway.  Editing is just reading and correcting the mistakes.  It’s a process, but this way I can do something even if it isn’t writing.  Though, the more I edit, the easier it will be to generate more ideas and is a task that needs to get done anyway.  I am in the process of refining my process of writing. I’m also looking through stuff the I’ve written before that wasn’t bad that I can just polish and publish.  Like

14 April 2021

  Song mood: (I’d Go The) Whole Wide World by Wreckless Eric.   Just because I’m thinking of the movie Stranger Than Fiction , which I haven’t seen in a while. I haven’t been watching as much television lately.  I read more.  I write more.  I’m learning Tai Chi.  I’m working on core strength and upper body strength. When I walk the lake, I do my modified path so that I have more time to do other stuff.  Getting x amount of steps isn’t my real goal when I’m working on a few other things.  I’ve been having back problems after doing planking and push ups, so I may have to do modified push ups. Currently I’m listening to Christine Falls by Benjamine Black, a Quirke Mystery.  Read by Timothy Dalton.  Who is my least favorite Bond, but is doing a great job with this audio program.  Just like in the movie, the character Andy is a terrible person.  When you watch him in the movie or read him in the book, you instantly think of how terrible he is and wonder why women fall for him.  Your c

10 April 2021

  Song mood: Electric Blue by Icehouse.  A song I heard today on the radio. Spent the day hanging out with my mum and sister.  My sister wanted to visit an uncle who lives in a Veteran's home, but found out that we would need to contact his case worker in order to set up an appointment to visit him.  So we went to see the world's largest Pelican instead; and then went a Viking museum.  The replica of the Norse church is probably the coolest part of the museum.  Sure the replica Viking ship that actually was used to make a trip to Norway was cool.  But the church tour has a historian talking about the architecture of the church. This morning, my shoulders hurt bad as I went for my walk and felt better after a couple of miles.  It was rough sleeping last night.  I couldn't stop thinking.  Which is I need to work on meditation, so I can learn to shut off my mind. Tonight I watched one my favorite movies of all time: North by Northwest .  With the beautiful Eva Saint Marie

8 April 2021

  Song mood: Eternal Flame by the Bangles. A band I wanted to see before this whole pandemic thing hit. I was checking their website for tour dates. It would have meant me going to Southern California. Northern California is way cool, but I’m not a huge fan of Southern. Anyway that song pops into my head in a way that the wedding march pops into my head. Day two after the COVID shot. I’m still experiencing shortness of breath. Which in turn feeds my anxieties. Which is why I need to work on my breathing exercises/meditation. My joints are a bit sore and the headaches have been worse these last two days. The first day after the shot, I felt like I got hit by a bus. The joint pain was great and even worse in the arm I got the shot it. I’m heading to Fargo tomorrow. The drive is going to kill my back and one of my knees. Which is why I carry a cane with me. I imagine that I will be a bit crippled come Sunday after I return to Omaha.  I have written the poems for the next three days i

6 April 2021

  Song mood: Animal by Def Leppard. Good old 80's British rock.  I saw them in concert once, at a state fair in South Dakota. I got my first COVID shot, and it's kicking my ass.  I hurt all over and the arm I got the shot in hurts way more.  Not nearly as bad real COVID, but still. So, it is a good thing I did my arm work out last night.  After doing exercises last night, I was out of breath.  I thought to myself that recovering my strength will be a long process. I started the Taoist Breathing online course last night.  I needed to work on my breathing.  It has been rather shallow for a while.  The course also helps the meditation process, which in turn will help with focusing issues. So tonight is watching mysteries, or reading mysteries, or both. I'll probably visit my mum in Fargo this weekend.  A six to seven hour drive may be rough.  I used to do those all the time when I was younger. I will continue to work my projects, just not tonight.

3 April 2021

  Song mood: I Melt with You by Modern English. It took me three days, but I was able to set up my appointment to get my first vaccination.  I’m excited to get the shot.  Mainly because full on COVID is terrible.  I hated it and the side effects lasted for months.  Though, nothing is going to be the same as it was before.  Like I will more than likely do take out and drive throughs for the foreseeable future.  Nor do I really plan to hang out at bars.  Coffee shops on the other hand, most likely when they open up again.  Libraries too. I finished The Martian Chronicles today.  I liked it.  I knew I would.  Even though they were short stories, there was an overal story arc.  As I was listening to this, I could see that Neil Gaiman was heavily influenced by Ray Bradbury. Currently I’m listening to The Jewel that was Ours by Colin Dexter.  An Inspector Morse novel written after the author finished working on the screen play for the BBC/Masterpiece Theater. After that will be The M

31 March 2021

  Song mood: Just Like Heaven by the Cure. I downloaded another writing craft book: Writing in the Dark by Dean Wesley Smith. It was a writing book recommended in the Be A Writing Machine book that I’m reading. Basically this book is about writing without an outline, or writing in the dark. Most writing groups and creative writing teachers and most of the writing community in general are against pantsers, or people who write by the seat of their pants. Writing in the Dark is book that shows how to write a novel without outlines. I need to do whatever it takes to get stories done. Which, is why I’m reading all these craft books at the moment. I discovered pulp fiction and the successful writers like Georges Simenon. I read the Maigret books and say, these are good quality books. I’ve a had a few low energy days for the last several days. Where I just wanted to sleep. The last couple of nights I have been watching the Murdock Mysteries. It is what it is. The series takes place in

29 March 2021

  Song mood: Feel Good Inc by the Gorillaz. I heard that the vaccination schedule has opened up for 18 and up in Nebraska.  So far of all the places that are doing are filled up for appointments.  Or that is what their websites are saying.  I will probably be calling the places as well.  I want to get the vaccine as soon as possible. My stimulis check came and I am using it along with the previous one to pay off credit cards.  That’s also where my tax return will go.  My goal for this year is to eliminate credit card debt.  And then continue to build my savings account. I want to build a certain financial stability.  Another reason I want to be a successful pulp fiction writer. I started listening to The Martian Chronicles by Ray Bradbury.  It’s an excellent break from mysteries.  Part nostalgia, part twilight zone and every bit sci-fi.  The audiobook is of the original and not the updated one of 1997.  The reason I know is because of the dates in the book.  Many guys complain

24 March 2021

  Song mood: Need You Tonight by INXS. I added another book to my growing list of books: Be a Writing Machine by M.L. Ronn.  He has a lot of advice on being prolific.  I want to write more books.  Mainly because I have a lot of story ideas that never get written.  So, I'm getting over the need for my stories to be absolutely perfect.  And now I just need to get projects done. From the start, Ronn mentioned Scrivener IOS.  I have Scrivener on my Mac.  When I looked it up for phone apps, I found out that it was a free download because I already bought the program.  I'm writing this post on my phone.   I have no problems writing stuff on my phone.  It was just awkward with the basic notes program.  Now I just need to sync up from my phone and that's where Dropbox comes in handy.   It will be a game changer to be able to write stuff on my phone with a decent writing program.  I could write at a lake or state park without the need of my computer. So for the next part of

21 March 2021

  Song mood: Situation No Win by Big Audio Dynamite (BAD). Currently I’m reading The Big Four by Agatha Christie. This one isn’t grabbing my attention. When she tried to write international spy novels, the weren’t as good when she did straight out mysteries. Her spy thrillers weren’t realistic at all. I’m also reading Maigret Sets a Trap by Georges Simenon. I wanted to know how the book compares to the television series with Mr Bean playing Maigret. This book caught my interest right away. It is very similar to the TV series. Georges Simenon published 10 Maigret novels in the first year he became a he started writing the Maigret novels. About as many the second year. He published nearly 500 novels and many short stories. There were 75 Maigret novels and 28 short stories. Granted most of the Maigret novels are actually novellas, but still, the numbers are impressive. He truly was a pulp fiction master. I’m hoping that by studying his works, that I too could become a pulp fiction m