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19 October 2021

  Song mood: Just like Heaven by the Cure. The no bones day pug is super cute. There I said something was cute. I would love to have a pug. They are a breed of dogs that have moderate to low amounts of anxiety. They’re okay with being left alone. Or, at least, the ones I’ve been in contact with have. A bit tired today. A bit in a sour mood because I’m tired. Wrote three lines in my mystery last night. I didn’t like them. But that was a good thing, because I thought of something I did like. I will need to do a little bit more planning. This time, I will need to make a detailed timeline for the story. I plan on starting in the middle. My new phone came. The transfer of data was amazing. Once it was done, the phone was more or less a clone of the last. Everything was in the same place as it was in the last phone. Though, I was a bit disappointed that there were no headphones that came with the phone. And, there was no charger. I was surprised on how the screen resolution on the n

Travel Writing

This morning, while I was on my walk, I remembered a project that I was going to do. I was listening to The October Country by Ray Bradbury when the idea struck me. The short story in this collection was The Wind . One of the characters of that story was a travel writer. The moment, the narator mentioned it, everything sort of clicked. I had been working on a project before life got all messy with COVID and stuff. And the project was a travel book about London and Paris. I already started the project and posted on the website. Though, I have very fond memories of that trip, it was horrifying trip. The scariest part of the trip happened the first night.  What happened was, the owner of the bed and breakfast I had booked for half the trip told me that he no longer does the bed and breakfast. I walked through the rough streets of Islington looking for a place to stay that night. I found a hotel, but because it was same day booking, it cost 150 quid. While there, someone pointed me to Tra

16 October 2021

  Song mood: I Melt with You by Modern English. I’m thinking of a movie called Whatever It Takes , where the protagonist plays the song on his accordion to the damsel next door. I did Tai Chi right away, before I did my Saturday thing. I think I should be doing it in the morning, just for the main reason that it’s done and out of the way. Anyway. I’m currently watching Picnic at Hanging Rock with Natalie Dormer. It’s a bit longer than I was expecting. I was thinking it would be three episodes and it turns out to be six. It’s a change of scenery. I plotted out my story. I have a cast of characters. I’m reading A is for Arsenic: The Poisons of Agatha Christie by Kathryn Harkup. She goes through all the poisons used in the Agatha Christie books. What the effects are, and more importantly, what the antidote is for each one, if there is one. Now, I just have to write. I need to finish writing it by the end of the year. No pressure right? I think I need to write a letter to someone

14 October 2021

  Song mood: Africa by Toto. I figured out my mystery novel. Or the basics, I have yet to name the characters. I know the back stories of three characters. The protagonist is a freelance photographer. His wife is a mystery writer from England. He’s kind of famous as a photographer, but hardly anyone knows his name. She’s famous where everyone does know her name. I like that idea in a couple, where you have two people who are good at what they do, but the wife has far more recognition for what she does. Anyway. The book will be in two parts. Where the first part is the mystery. Then the second part is the thriller. In this part, the identity of the killer is known and now they are trying to get away. I’m thinking that the ending sequence happens on this one trail I heard about while living in Seattle. If you go on the trail during low tide, you’re fine. If you go on the trail during high tide, you’re taking a risk because once the tide is in, parts of the trail is underwater for

12 October 2021

  Song mood: You and Me by Lifehouse. Tomorrow is going to be rough. I decided that caffeine is the enemy. So tomorrow, I will reduce the amount of coffee that I drink. And in it’s place will be tea. I think caffeine boasts my anxiety, so I will reduce the amount that I consume. Only when I do that, the headaches begin. One time I quit drinking coffee altogether and had a headache for six days straight. I’m halfway through The October Country by Ray Bradbury. Once that is done, I think I will re-listen to Gideon the Ninth by Tamsyn Muir. It’s one of my favorites. Part fantasy, part mystery and part horror all rolled into one. Gideon has to be one of the funniest character ever and yet pulls on the heart strings towards the end. That will get through to November. Then, I’m going to switch things up a little. Sometimes I like to take a break from myself so to speak. So, after Gideon, I will listen to Uglies by Scott Westerfeld. Also in this effort to take a break from myself, I


 I'm in the process of deep cleaning my room. I rearranged the room because I thought I was going to have more space with the new arrangement, but I don't. Only now, my back hurts, so I don't want to put everything back to the way it was before.

Middle Names

 I have two middle names. My first one is Avli, which is my Eskimo name. Whenever I'm in Alaska, this is the name I'm addressed as. I was named after my grandfather. My second middle name is Evans. Both grandfathers were Evans. On my father's side: Evans Arthur. On my mother's side Evans Avli. It was a weird coincidence that my grandfathers, who were thousands of miles apart were both given the same name.  Anyway, that is the short history of me through my middle names.

7 October 2021

  Song mood: Friday, I’m in Love by The Cure. So far, for the novella, I have the setting, the situation (not sure of the word I’m thinking here) and the method.  Next, I’ll figure out the characters and the big secrets. Setting: a suburb of Seattle, lots of strange stuff happen there. Okay, it’s not as strange as I make it out to be. The situations will be a party and a storm. The method, for now a secret. The big secret will be something like a relationship gone bad. The motive: revenge. I should finish The Sandman: Act II on Saturday.  Then next up will be The October Country by Ray Bradbury. For future videos, I will do the story of Echo and Dot. The Dark Prince has attacked their world. Echo loses his wife Ti-me. Okay, so I stole part of the story line from Finding Nemo . Dot is lost and Echo is trying to find her.  One thing I’m learning from The Sandman , because it’s like a radio play, is to have characters describe what the audience can’t see. So if there is a Zombie a

5 October 2021

  Song mood: Golden Years by David Bowie. It’s been a while since I watched A Knight’s Tale with Heath Ledger. I’m thinking of the banquet scene where everyone is dancing to this song. It’s been a rough couple of days. On Sunday, I felt like my chest was tight. I was wheezing and coughing. I’ve been taking over the counter allergy pills. I must admit, that I feel better since taking the last pill. I will need to talk with my doctor about these things. I just hate the idea of taking an allergy test. So probably, those walks around the lake were not a good idea. Especially if it’s allergies, with all the dust being scattered during harvesting. At any rate, I found it tougher to breath for the last couple of days. I am working my way to being healthier. Tonight I did some meal prep. Chicken stir fry.  Then I think I will add low impact weight lifting. And pilates. I want to strengthen my core.  A long time ago, I tore the ligaments of my lower back. Which doctors told me there was

2 October 2021

  Song mood: Monster Mask by Pomplamoose. Being tired goes without saying. I thought I was going to write a two page story every day for October for my official website. But I still haven’t navigated through the apathy I have for my writing. Last year on this website, I wrote my thoughts about ghost stories I listened to, until someone made fun of the fact that I needed to post something every day. Then I stopped. Maybe I will write horror stories, just not as many as I thought I would. Today, I am going to make an effort for my writing. I’m going to sit down and do something. I don’t know what, but I will do something. My daily poems that I post on social medial will still have the theme of Scary Stories to Tell in the Dark . I finally learned 8 form Tai Chi. It will be a staple of my practice during the winter. Then, in spring, I will probably learn Chen style 36 form. And maybe the Tai Chi sword form as well. I’ll know more next year. Among all the things that I’m learning

28 September 2021

  Song mood: Spin by Lifehouse. I saw them twice, both small venues. These days I’m not sure if I could go to a concert where it is packed wall to wall of people. I like the comfort of stadium seating. Where you can hold hands with your nearest and dearest while keeping a small distance from the other people. I still haven’t written October poems. Normally I try to write the month of October’s in advance, so then it would give me more time to write ghost stories. Usually I either write the poems to a theme or make them a serial story. This year I’m writing the poems to the theme of Scary Stories to Tell in the Dark by Alvin Shwartz. Then I will try to write a two page horror story for each day in October on my ‘official’ website . Scary Stories will also be useful to get ideas for the short stories. Small steps, I remind myself. So, I’m listening to music on youtube. This commercial comes up where it says I should consider marrying a Latin woman. That L

23 September 2021

  Song mood: Somebody to Love by Queen. Which, when I listen to Grace Kelly by MIKA, I think of. I think I’m getting towards a state of balance. Which is what I want. If I am sad, people would think that I would want to be happy. I’d rather feel balanced. Happiness will come on its own time. Feeling balanced is a process. Do I get the right amount of exercise? Do I get enough sleep? Have I drank enough water? Have I eaten right? Tonight, I had a hot dog with tater tots. The potatoes are what I need to eat less of, and yet, they are the toughest thing for me to cut down. That and bread. This weekend, I will, though I say this and I probably won’t do, brainstorm on better foods to eat. I need to cut down on carbs. Not eliminate them, but cut them down. At any rate, I’m okay. I worry about other people, sometimes I want to reach out and say are you okay? Anyway. It’s been a bit stressful the last few days worrying about my mum. She went to an urgent care and then went to get an MR

The Numbers

As we finish 20 September, I can say that I have an obsession with numbers. Back when I lived in Korea and taught English, I helped some newly made friends with their English. And in one of these books that they used to learn, there was this guy who was getting married on 20 September. And since then, 920 was the code for marriage. The start of my obsession was with my father. He would always point out 11:11. Then my sister would make me memorize birthdays. So I will remember the birthdays. My grandmother was 829. My birthday is on 10 August. Which, more or less every handle that I have will have 810. That is my code. Most everyone I know, will have a number or two assigned to them. There’s the birthday, month and day. Then there’s month and year. So say there is someone who was born on 2/2/1996. They would have the number 202 and 296. But then 2/2 is the 33 day of the year, so then they would get the number 033. The numbers thing is something I like to use to sabotage relationships. T

18 September 2021

  Song mood: Whole Wide World by Wreckless Eric. Because I feeling serendipitous.   Though I’m not sure if that is the right word. Something that is like a happy coincidence. Or, is it like the scene in North by Northwest where Eva Marie Saint says to Cary Grant, luck had nothing to do with it. I feel like there are a lot of happy coincidences going on lately. Serendipity. I’m thinking of Stranger Than Fiction with Will Ferrell.  I cry every time I watch that movie. I’m beyond tired haven been waken up at 5:30am. I did some brainstorming, but it was really crap.  Which is okay. I think I just need to do it more often.  I ended up writing about what I’m really scared about: mice. They give me certain fright. I made the effort to brainstorm and that’s really what counts. Making the effort to do something you love to do. It was fun hanging out with my writer’s group.  Decisions were made about what books will be used for lessons. Part of the meetings for this writer’s group is a

A Show that I Watched as a Kid that I Couldn't Possibly Remember the Name to

There’s a show I watched as a kid I’m trying to remember the name of. I’m afraid I won’t be able to solve this mystery. It was a darker children’s show. It had puppets, and they were all darker colors like grey, blue, purple. I think there was a hotel in it. It may have been vampire themed. The story line was fascinating. I think I may have been five or six. It only lasted for like a year or two. I was sad when the series was over. Then a couple of years later, my mum, sister and I went to my mum’s village in Alaska. And programs at that time ran late, like a couple of years late. I got to rewatch the series again. Of course I can’t find the show in my research. It wasn’t a popular show because it was a bit dark for a children’s show. But that got me to thinking, when did children’s shows become all cheery? Children’s shows in my time as a child were mostly dark. There was an element of danger. I grew up on the Dot and the Kangaroo series. Dot was this girl who went missing and to hel

16 September 2021

Song mood: Grace Kelly by MIKA. I love Ryan Reynolds’ duet with Will Ferrel on this song. It was mesmerizing. The song by MIKA is pretty cool as well. It reminds me of Freddy Mercury and Queen. I don’t know what it is about watching Reynolds and Ferrel do this song, but I’m just in a better mood after watching. It got me thinking about the power of the smaller things. Larger things, like a novel and whatnot, seem a bit overwhelming. But shorter stories, stories that are only two pages or one sentence seem a lot easier. Let’s take the one sentence story. One can think of the story and in one sentence it’s done. But the sentence may not be what you want it to be. So then I ask myself, what isn’t right about the story. How can I change the sentence so it is what I want it to be. So there, in a brief moment of time, I have gone through three areas of writing: generating the idea, writing it down, and editing. Anyway. Sometimes I get overwhelmed about things, and my breathes are short. A s

12 September 2021

  Song mood: Meet Me in the Pale Moonlight by Lana del Rey. Sometimes, I get in this moment, and I can’t get past the moment. I can’t move forward. I want to write, but I don’t have the drive to engage in my own stories. And the stories change as I think of them. Then by the time I write them, they become something different all together. I do write down ideas on my phone. Kind of like writing down dreams on my phone because that is the closest thing on hand. My drive for writing could stem from me not wanting to say what I feel. I mean, I do believe that most everyone’s life would have been better had I not been a part of it in some way. Of course, I’m learning to accept that. And then I will get past this lack of drive for my writing. I will write a lot of books and with proceeds of the books, I will be able to buy a tiny house by Lake Washington and the Cascade mountains. I told myself I was going to wait before reading another Maigret novel. Then I started reading Night at th

11 September 2021

  People are talking about what they were doing on this day twenty years ago on this day. I was sitting at my desk dumbfounded. I worked as a draftsman for a metal building company and once the story broke on the radio, we all stopped working and either listened to the radio or went to the break room to watch the news unfold on the television. I was moved by President Bush's speech this morning. He pointed out what's wrong with America. He said that the same hatred that fueled the terror attacks then is going around today within America. That the Muslims weren't the enemy, people who are different aren't the enemy. That it was the radical thinkers and extremists who was the enemy. That America has a chance of being the great country it once was. Implying that once the radicals and extremists let go of the hate. Implying once we end the racism that has taken hold of country empowered by the previous president, then America can become the great nation it once was. That m

9 September 2021

  Six hour drives seem to sap all the energy I have. On the way north to Fargo, I finished listening to The Turn of the Screw by Henry James. I started that on a previous road trip. I didn't like it as much as Daisy Miller, also by Henry James. I also finished listening to Stephen Fry's Victorian Secrets . Then I started listening to the Poetic Edda translated by Jackson Crawford.  I'm enjoying it. It was written around the 1200's, it's a series of poems that chronicles the Nordic gods. The poets at times went crazy with repetition, but that's okay. The rhythm builds on the repetition. I'm not going to worry about my writing. That is, I will write and hope the momentum builds. It's not about success or failure, but legacy. I need to adopt the same attitude about my writing as I do videos: just have fun with it. For videos, I think I will start writing one minute poems. I can also read other people's poetry as well. So there is a wealth of ma

8 September 2021

  Song mood: Wicked Games by Chris Isaak. I did a brainstorming session last night, where I wasn’t feeling it. Which lead to an hour of sitting in bed and doing nothing. I go through these periods where I don’t think I can write, or do anything at all. It was a rough hour or two on the darker path. The moment passes.  Now I’m just going through the motions of writing. Writing this blog. What I did do was write things I noticed I could do. Ask myself questions about this story. Ask questions about other stories. Let’s take The Hand by Georges Simenon, there was a portion of the story I wasn’t satisfied with. What’s to stop me from writing a story of what I thought it should be. You can change the characters but put them in the same situation. The story starts with a party. Then there’s a storm. After the storm, a body is found. Instead of having a guy go into mental decline, we can have the guy try to figure out who done it before anyone else dies. I remembered my dream this morn

6 September 2021

  Song mood: Hazy Shade of Winter by the Bangles. I finished listening to Robert Aickman’s The Unsettled Dust . For the most part, I enjoyed it. His style of writing is difficult to follow. He doesn’t write straight forward. It’s the time period he’s from and the type of story that he presents. Like the last story in the collection, I’m sure that it’s about werewolves and he’s playing with the words ‘lichen’ and ‘lycan.’ And yet with this ambiguity, his words seem to just roll along. So he is purposely ambiguous but the words flow in a certain rhythm. Tomorrow, Certain Dark Things by Silvia Moreno-Garcia comes out. I will be listening to that tomorrow. I finished reading The Hand by Georges Simenon. It was different than what I was thinking it was going to be. I kept expecting some sort of twist, like it was some sort of mystery with twist. Instead it was a chronicle of a man’s mental breakdown. I was disappointed that there wasn’t something to solve. It was well written though.

4 Septemeber 2021

  Song mood: Follow Your Arrow by Kacey Musgraves. I don’t want to do anything or be anything today. I made the mistake of asking for extra spicy salsa for my tacos last night. Basically it was a diced up habanero in water. Which, burned while eating. And continued to burn through out my intestines. It upset my bowels the whole night and well into the early morning. I woke up early as well. If I had a significant other, she would have tugged on my shirt and I would have asked for something like salsa verde, or mild salsa. Currently, I’m reading Mary Oliver’s A Poetry Handbook . I think this will help out with writing different poems. Though I like The Triggering Town by Richard Hugo, I’m hoping this has more of the nuts and bolts of writing poems.  I think of Richard Hugo as my grandfather in writing poetry.  He taught Art Homer poetry and Art Homer taught me. My thoughts on my fantasy series: I’m thinking of writing a collection of short stories and novellas. I originally though

2 September 2021

  Song mood: Yellow by Coldplay. So I start out with wanting to do nothing. But feeling I have a lot of things to do. To write. So I sit and think about what I want to do and to write. Then I read the ‘I must not fear’ litany from Dune . My Dune shirt will arrive on Tuesday and I want to be prepare to make my video. I wrote tomorrows poem. It doesn’t quite go with the picture, but I’m okay with that. Not sure what I’ll do this weekend, probably what I do every weekend and it’ll be another long holiday that I didn’t plan for. Though, the following weekend I will be in Fargo because of my mum’s birthday. I can foresee another trip to visit my mum on Christmas. That trip, I won’t be excited for, because I’m not a big fan of driving during winter. Currently, I’m listening to Robert Aickman’s The Unsettled Dust . I knew what I was getting into before listening to it, but still, it’s a bit ambiguous. One of the stories was like, write a story about vampires without mentioning vampires

30 August 2021

  Song mood: Freaking Out on the Interstate by Briston Maroney. Yesterday was my grandmother’s birthday.  She died when I was thirteen of liver disease.  I think.  On her last birthday, I experienced dejavu.  I was messing around the porch with some cousins, I ran over the edge and flipped over wooden rails. I landed solidly on my back and lost my breath.  But I had seen things.  I saw my grandmother being helped into the car.  As I got up, my grandmother left my uncle’s house and was helped into the car. Today was Mary Shelley’s birthday.  Frankenstein still has to be one of my favorite novels.  I am curious if there is a difference between the 1818 text or the later edition that is commonly used today.  They say that Victor Frankenstien in the earlier edition can see that he is the cause of his problems where as in the later edition, he is a victim of the circumstances. Tonight, I made myself write 300 words in my Inspector Trevor novel.  I started on the murder scene going thro

28 August 2021

  Song mood: I Melt with You by Modern English. I finished listening to Velvet was the Night by Silvia Moreno-Garcia.  I think this was one of her best books yet.  Although Mexican Gothic , also by her, was my favorite.  Mexican Gothic is kind of like Bram Stoker’s Dracula . Next up is The Unsettled Dust by Robert Aickman. I’m currently listening to the podcast Edwardian Secrets by Stephen Fry while I’m driving around doing my Saturday thing.  Which, I’m thinking is pretty good.  Well, I like Stephen Fry.  His voice is so mellow and very British.  I found out he also has a podcast Victorian Secrets , which I added to my library. Right now, it is too hot to really do anything.  I did my walk this morning and was sweating a bit by the end. Goal for today, write 300 words in my mystery.  Read 30 pages in the mystery I’m reading: The Hand by Georges Simenon.  I really want to buy more books.  But I need to read stuff I already have.  The other book I’m reading because it was i