22 April 2021

 Song mood: Mr. Brightside by The Killers.

Woke up early this morning. Not that it matters. It’s where my thoughts dwell in the morning that bothers me most about waking up early.

This morning I wrote down a list of how I can tell if a woman is interested in me.

1. Does she say hello or goodbye? Does she talk with you?

2. Does she follow you or follow you back on social media like Instagram?

3. Does she respond to your messages or send you messages?

The list goes on. That doesn’t matter. I could use parts of this list for another list, will another artist or writer like to work with me? The list starts out as a kind of feeler. Like following someone on Instagram, does that writer or artist follow you back. If yes, great. If they have the same kind interest, like a type of sci-fi or fantasy, ask them if they would like to do a collaboration. Although, it is usually best if you met that person first, at say, a convention or writer’s group or book fair. All of which we couldn’t do during the pandemic.

I need to make a list of things to do, so I can improve my writing. I have been doing this forever. I don’t know if my writing will ever be good. But working the pulp fiction way, it doesn’t have to be. It just has to be written. I have been making slow progress, which is better than not writing. I tell myself I need to make a commitment of 350 words a day. Anyone could write 350 words. Sure I could write a whole lot more. But if I make myself write that much on days that I don’t feel like writing, then the momentum will build.

It’s really the little things that count. If you do enough of the little things, the momentum builds, and that is what I need.

It’s odd to think that I haven’t really made any travel plans yet. Conventions would be awesome to go to. I really want to go to the Capilano Suspension Bridge in Vancouver, BC. I want to go to a Doctor Who convention. I want to go to a Red Sox game at Fenway Park and then an Edgar Allan Poe tour of Boston.

But right now, it’s time to focus. Focus on my breath and get healthier. Time to focus on my writing more. To focus on building those lasting connections. To be.