Song mood: Space Oddity by David Bowie. I watched the Secret Life of Walter Mitty this weekend. I haven’t watched in a while. It’s one of my favorite movies. Because it was a movie that said that it’s okay to be me.
Space Oddity happens about in the middle. Where Walter has to decide if he is going to on a helicopter with a drunk pilot. He imagines his love interest playing and singing that song. Then he has the courage to go on his adventure.
I’m trying to get out of myself. Because I think that’s the path towards productivity. What I mean here, is that my mind gets stuck in a series of patterns. Like if I can’t stop thinking about something, that is like a spell. And with most spells, it can be broken. I just need to get out of myself. Do something that will get my mind off of what I’m thinking.
So, I’m watching these videos of this graphic artist. Mainly because I love the sound of her voice. I watched this one where it showed her drawing this picture and I was totally amazed of how talented she is. Like her drawings are like the mastery of the Venus de Milo while my writing is like the mastery of stick figures. Of course I have accepted that I can only draw stick figures and am rather okay with that.
I’m trying to build some sort of escape world and watching her videos help. Something to pull my mind from what I’m thinking. I have this feeling that if I can do that for just a moment, then I can spark my own creativity.
I need to work on my Tai Chi and belly breathing. The idea of meditation. Mastery of belly breathing and meditation will be the best steps to help me get out of myself. By helping me let go of the thought patterns I’m stuck in. But at the moment, just listening to a kind voice helps greatly.
Walter Mitty in The Secret Life would get into these episodes of zoning out, going through fantasy after fantasy. And it took an adventure to drive his focus. Mitty needed to get out into the world. I need to focus within.