Song mood: Bittersweet Symphony by the Verve.
I hate it when I wake up around 4:30am. Sure I may sleep for twenty to thirty minutes after or something like that, but still, it makes for a long day. I try to fall back asleep but there is the damned meadow larks chirping loudly, who, chirp softly the moment I’m up and walking around. I know from experience that I can’t drink more coffee. The extra coffee just makes me more jittery. So here I am.
The truth is not in an Instagram post or an item on my browsing history on Amazon. When I’m tired, I just like to watch videos on IG, sometimes youtube, but my attention span is rather short.
I kind of want to go on a small trip today. Maybe I will. I think I should do some serious hiking. Yesterday I was thinking I should lift weights for hours. Last weekend I thought I should sit down and write a book in a day. I’m stuck between the desire of concentrated effort and apathy. Apathy wins the majority of the time.
Last night, I broke down and got Disney+. I dropped Britbox. I watched the first episode of Loki, and it was phenomenal. The TV show was far better than I was expected and this was a show I was really anticipating.
What I can see for today is some walking. Maybe I’ll go to a movie. Or, maybe I’ll go to a museum. Who knows, maybe I’ll take nap after posting this. There are things I should be doing and then there are things that I will actually do. One of these days, the two will be the same.