Song mood: Meet Me in the Pale Moonlight by Lana del Rey.
Sometimes, I get in this moment, and I can’t get past the moment. I can’t move forward. I want to write, but I don’t have the drive to engage in my own stories. And the stories change as I think of them. Then by the time I write them, they become something different all together.
I do write down ideas on my phone. Kind of like writing down dreams on my phone because that is the closest thing on hand.
My drive for writing could stem from me not wanting to say what I feel. I mean, I do believe that most everyone’s life would have been better had I not been a part of it in some way. Of course, I’m learning to accept that. And then I will get past this lack of drive for my writing. I will write a lot of books and with proceeds of the books, I will be able to buy a tiny house by Lake Washington and the Cascade mountains.
I told myself I was going to wait before reading another Maigret novel. Then I started reading Night at the Crossroads by Georges Simenon, a Maigret novel. I will finish this before October and then I will start The Near Witch by V.E. Schwab.
Today I finished listening to Agatha Raisin and the Murderous Marriage by M.C. Beaton. I picked that one because it was an easy read to listen on the way home from Fargo. A cozy mystery.
I loaded up my Audible. There was a five dollar sale, I looked up more free titles, and I used a credit.
This week I will finish up Certain Dark Things by Silvia Moreno-Garcia. Then, next up will be The Turn of the Key by Ruth Ware. Followed by The October Country by Ray Bradbury. After that will be The Prestige by Christopher Priest. Which, I thought was a sad movie for one reason I won’t get into so I don’t spoil the movie. Also on the list, but may get pushed out in case I find some other spooky thing to listen to between now and then is Jane Austen at Home by Lucy Worsley. After that is The Aeneid by Virgil and translated by Robert Fagles.
So there I am, with a long list of things to read and listen to. And with with some momentum to write.