18 September 2021

 Song mood: Whole Wide World by Wreckless Eric. Because I feeling serendipitous.  Though I’m not sure if that is the right word. Something that is like a happy coincidence. Or, is it like the scene in North by Northwest where Eva Marie Saint says to Cary Grant, luck had nothing to do with it. I feel like there are a lot of happy coincidences going on lately. Serendipity.

I’m thinking of Stranger Than Fiction with Will Ferrell.  I cry every time I watch that movie.

I’m beyond tired haven been waken up at 5:30am.

I did some brainstorming, but it was really crap.  Which is okay. I think I just need to do it more often.  I ended up writing about what I’m really scared about: mice. They give me certain fright. I made the effort to brainstorm and that’s really what counts. Making the effort to do something you love to do.

It was fun hanging out with my writer’s group.  Decisions were made about what books will be used for lessons. Part of the meetings for this writer’s group is a ten minute lesson. Followed by readings where people critique your work. I usually only bring something to read when I’m told that I have to. And the moderator of the group goes through this process where at the end I say, fine, I’ll bring something to read. 

Then I stutter through the first couple of lines.  I really don’t like speaking in public, or talking in front of a camera.  Which is why I have been making videos on a certain app lately. Because the more times I do it, the easier it gets. And so when I get back to poetry readings, I can do it with ease. Or, that’s the thought.

I figured out why it is easier for me to write a blog post than it is to write fiction. Because when I write these posts, I have in mind, or I imagine that I’m speaking with someone, that I have an audience. Or rather, a specific audience. I’m never quite sure who reads these. When I’m writing fiction, like a detective story, I don’t have an audience in mind. Most of the time, the audience that I think of when writing fiction is me. Is this something I would enjoy?

I need to work on getting healthier. I feel these pains where my gallbladder used to be. That is telling me that I need to stop eating fatty foods, that I really do need to work on lowering my cholesterol. Because my liver is making tiny stones that used to collect in my gallbladder that is no longer there. And instead, is lodging in my bile ducts. So I just need to cut out the deep fat fried foods that I like to eat on the weekends. Or the donuts that I eat every other day.

Well, that is me on a Saturday. Tomorrow, I will walk around the lake, read a mystery, do some brainstorming and then continue to watch mysteries.  I’m currently watching McDonald & Dodds, which is pretty fun to watch.