Song mood: Somebody to Love by Queen. Which, when I listen to Grace Kelly by MIKA, I think of.
I think I’m getting towards a state of balance. Which is what I want. If I am sad, people would think that I would want to be happy. I’d rather feel balanced. Happiness will come on its own time.
Feeling balanced is a process. Do I get the right amount of exercise? Do I get enough sleep? Have I drank enough water? Have I eaten right?
Tonight, I had a hot dog with tater tots. The potatoes are what I need to eat less of, and yet, they are the toughest thing for me to cut down. That and bread. This weekend, I will, though I say this and I probably won’t do, brainstorm on better foods to eat. I need to cut down on carbs. Not eliminate them, but cut them down.
At any rate, I’m okay. I worry about other people, sometimes I want to reach out and say are you okay? Anyway.
It’s been a bit stressful the last few days worrying about my mum. She went to an urgent care and then went to get an MRI. Once the results were available, the doctor told her that she is feeling the effects of aging.
I’ve had dizzy spells many times before. But usually it was after a long time of not eating right. As I would do a lot of running and lifting weights and eat less to lose weight. You really can’t do that. The dizzy spells usually come after a length of time of physical stress. Not enough food and a lot of moving around.
Currently I’m reading The Tidy Guide to Writing a Novel by Rachel Aukes. She was a key not speaker at a writer’s conference I went to. She writes writes sci-fi, fantasy, and horror. Her most notable book is 100 Days in Deadland, which I thought was pretty good when I listened to the book on the way to the conference. Anyway, she goes through her process of writing.
So this weekend, I will prepare to write something. I have decided that the reason why I should write my stories is to distract. Not to make money, although, that would be great. It’s so that one person who may need it, can be distracted for a moment in time. And after the moment of being distracted, they may be happy. That’s the goal.
I’m half way through The Turn of the Key by Ruth Ware. She has to be one of the most talented authors of our time. She makes writing look effortless. This story is similar to The Turn of the Screw by Henry James. I think she must of thought, let’s write a version of The Turn of the Screw, but without the ghosts. I’m guessing that this is not a ghost story, though it has the elements of one. Mainly because in all of her other books, there were no ghosts or paranormal activity. At the end, there would be a rational explanation, just like Agatha Christie.
Next up on my listening list is The Sandman: Act II by Neil Gaiman with James McAvoy as Dream. Then, I will reshuffle my long list of books to listen to.
So, it will be a nice quiet weekend. I will work on preparing my next project and spending some time with nature.